These days, making sure my head and heart are talking to each other is a full-time job. To say that life has been complicated is the biggest understatement in the history of my years. I was living out the stuff of movies and it didn't quite feel possible sometimes that it was real.
The past week and a half was terrifying. I was out of touch with friends and trying to lay low. Many were thinking about us and praying for us, and that is so so so appreciated. It started out with a simple phone call that made my stomach sink and my throat catch. But I also felt an overwhelming sense of calm. I know that at the end of the day, I can't worry about things that are out of my control.
The timing of my mom's visit was perfect. Had I been here alone, everything would have been scarier. However it was sad that her time here was somewhat tainted by the situation at hand. I'm just glad we were able to make the best of it and she made some priceless memories with her granddaughter. (Who has taken to calling her Dee-dee which is more of a crowd-pleaser than her initial nickname of "Bah").
Cameron's age is also a huge blessing at times like these. While pretty intuitive at Momma's emotions, she is still fairly unaware of anything below the surface of our daily activities. Having her around makes every day better.
We are safe now, thank goodness. Praying that this is the last time I ever have to feel that way in my life.