Since I was a little chickadee one thing has remained a constant in my life. I'm a rule follower. If the sign says "no left turn" in a parking garage I don't turn left even if no one is coming…"because it's wrong" (Buffy/Faith switching places--wonderfully entertaining episode, but I digress). Many of my friends are rule followers too. I remember one day at Catalina when Sarah Cashdollar and I were calling the weather line every 5 minutes to see if the temperature had gone up enough for her to be allowed to get in the pool. Her mom had told her a specific temp it needed to be. Her mom was not there. But neither of us even considered the possibility that we could or should get in before it reached that magic number. Deep down, I feel like doing what you are supposed to pays off. So what do you do when it feels like it isn't paying off to do the right thing? How do you stay motivated to trudge through the junk and come out the other side?
Especially now, I want to create a good example for Cameron with how I live my life and the choices that I make. Some days it is incredibly difficult to take the high road, hold my tongue, and just put my head down and push through the nastiness. Anyone got some encouraging words for me? I'm all ears (or eyes if you just type to me). The trite phrases just aren't cutting it at the moment.