I am coming back to you. My voice feels lighter when I talk to people. I don't whisper or talk under my breath to avoid criticism or sound sad nearly as often. The hours I spend playing with Cam are so fun because I'm fully engaged in what we are doing. I remember in high school when I listened to country music (I blame/credit the Haines family and spring break 1997...) there was a Pam Tillis song on the radio called "Land of the Living" that I always liked.
The lyrics are:
You gave him some good years
Now you'd like them back
Mistakes become clearer
After the fact
Now when you pick up the pieces
But you can't make them fit
Don't waste all your time
Trying to make sense of it
Just hurry back
To the land of the living
Things have changed
Since you've been gone
The world is turning
In the land of the living
Take a deep breath
Life goes on, life goes on
Come down from that dark cloud
What's done is done
Don't go down believin'
You're the only one
That ever felt heartache
Turn to regret
Oh, we've all got somethin'
We'd like to forget, that's right
Just hurry back
To the land of the living
Things have changed
Since you've been gone
The world is turning
In the land of the living
Take a deep breath
Life goes on, life goes on
Lean on my shoulder
And whisper your tears
We all need someone
To echo our fears
**I especially like that last part. Support, encouragement, friendship have all been crucial to me during this as I deal with some pretty heavy emotions and situations I'm just not prepared to handle alone. "We all need someone to echo our fears." I am glad to have some amazing listeners in my life who listen to those fears that I have and are real sounding boards but also help me to see the light at the end of the tunnel when I'm feeling bogged down. Grief is such a process especially when what you are grieving is not really gone fully.
The lyrics are:
You gave him some good years
Now you'd like them back
Mistakes become clearer
After the fact
Now when you pick up the pieces
But you can't make them fit
Don't waste all your time
Trying to make sense of it
Just hurry back
To the land of the living
Things have changed
Since you've been gone
The world is turning
In the land of the living
Take a deep breath
Life goes on, life goes on
Come down from that dark cloud
What's done is done
Don't go down believin'
You're the only one
That ever felt heartache
Turn to regret
Oh, we've all got somethin'
We'd like to forget, that's right
Just hurry back
To the land of the living
Things have changed
Since you've been gone
The world is turning
In the land of the living
Take a deep breath
Life goes on, life goes on
Lean on my shoulder
And whisper your tears
We all need someone
To echo our fears
**I especially like that last part. Support, encouragement, friendship have all been crucial to me during this as I deal with some pretty heavy emotions and situations I'm just not prepared to handle alone. "We all need someone to echo our fears." I am glad to have some amazing listeners in my life who listen to those fears that I have and are real sounding boards but also help me to see the light at the end of the tunnel when I'm feeling bogged down. Grief is such a process especially when what you are grieving is not really gone fully.